finially i remembered my password

Trouble can come in many forms. For me trouble comes in my memory. It really baffles me, I have a great memory for little things, like peoples face; I never forget a face. I am just a miss that I could not log into this blog for about 3 weeks because I couldn't remember my password. Turns out the reminder email kept going into my spam box and I forgot to check that too......
So out of boredom and frustration today I decided I would just try some passwords, since I generally use the same few for all these different web things. Then I typed in something on a whim and that happened to be the "key" to get in to blogger. Trouble remembering these passwords is not new, but it is annoying.

a funny story

Okay so here goes. Sometimes it is good to laugh. Let it be clear that i am not saying that Alzheimer's or dementia are funny. It just so happened that a funny thing happened to me.
When I was about 23 i lived with my mom and grandfather. My grandfather was a gentle, quiet man, but as he got old he began to start doing some strange things around the house. He had dementia i know he was not trying to harm me, he just wasn't thinking clearly.
Our house had been built in the early 1950's, it was old. The shower in my bathroom was like a broom closet; small, dark, and fitted with a frosted glass door. As i was in there one day, my grandpa walked into the bathroom, i told him i was in the shower and to go away! but he said " i'm coming in" and he wasn't kidding, he was already in his towel. I held onto the tiny metal handle of this old door and i screamed "mom" "mom" "MOM" as loud as i ever have. Luckily she was close by and charged into the room. "DAD! what are you doing?" she said, shocked to see him there.
"I'm gettin in the shower" (obviously) he said plain as day. "Well Jenny's in there right now"
"I know I'm getting in with her!"
What!? Here I am holding this door shut, one hand on the top of the door and the other on this little handle. My mom was funny, she was like "No you are not getting in the shower with her!" She was getting mad, thanks mom.
Finally she was able to talk grandpa out of the bathroom, and I was out of that shower so fast!
I chuckle even thinking of this now, it was so bizarre. And the funniest thing of all was my grandpa hated to take showers! He would go a long time before my mom could convince him to get in. This is a story that makes me laugh now and I needed that.

my newest painting

this painting has been a long one to finish
i went about 4 weeks with out getting any work done, i had "painters block"
i guess all creative are vulnerable to this. remind you i have 2 days a week allotted to paint.
i didn't like where my painting was at one point and not being able to get it past there tripped me up. i have some feelings that there are unseen things at work here too, i can feel them pressing in on me. i got through it and have been painting again, i am getting closer to being done with this painting.
this is angel #4 in my series. i'm thinking of calling her "dawns hope" .

awake 3 a.m.

i couldn't sleep
too many thought on my mind
invigorated,
drained
restless energy spilling
finishing my list
thinking about it
some more

reaching 100

i am working on my 100 things about me list, i am really surprised how challenging it is for me to come up with these.
i am at 75 right now and i think if i were including the deepest darkest things then i would be done.
but since i am insecure about somethings still and i don't know who is reading this, i think i better keep those bones buried for now.
i thought it would be a breeze to do 100.....uh ha. i am pondering some deeper things to reveal and bring to the light. i mean doesn't everyone want to know i am a size 6?

100 things about me

i saw this on a friends blog and thought it was fantastic. so i am going to give it a try. 100 seems like a lot. i may have to go in segments here.....
1. i have brown hair
2. i have blue eyes
3. i was born in Mexico
4. i love coffee
5. i wear a diamond ring
6. i have children
7. i am married
8. i drive a Kia Rondo
9. i wore braces for almost 2 years
10.my birthday is May 25th
11. i have had stitches
12. i have broken 1 bone
13. i am funny
14. i do not like to fold clothes
15. i do like to shop for clothes
16. i have swam in the ocean
17. i gave birth
18. someone calls me a friend
19. i like to watch t.v.
20. i am an artist
21. i'm currently painting angels
22. i like to talk on the phone
23. i am mildly obsessed with facebook
24. i have a gentle spirit
25. i am embarrassed easily
26. i don't like to fly
27. i lived in Los Angeles
28. i have some problems
29. i am terrible at math
30. not too much better at spelling
31. i am a slow reader
32. i like to have my picture taken
33. i have been really ill
34. i have had healing
35. i like to lay in the sun
36. i read perez hilton's website
37. i am learning about parenting
38. silence is under rated
39. i spend a lot of time in front of my laptop
40. i look at the same 4 websites every day
41. i grew up in a town called sycamore
42. i wore black clothes all through HS
43. i was obsessed with 'the cure'
44. i got a car when i turned 16
45. i have had 7 cars since then
46. i have seen a ghost
47. i drink red wine, Shiraz usually
48. i like the smell of Autumn
49. i am having a hard time thinking of 50 more
50. i wish i had a hot tub
51. i was raised by a single mom
52. my dad spoiled me
53. "otis spunkmyer" muffins are a family recipe
54. i lived in Laguna Beach CA
55. i have worked for a celebrity
56. i have vivid dreams
57. i have secrets
58. i wear a size 6 shoe
59. i am a free spirit
60. i can be obsessive in my thinking
61. i have a lot to do
62. i am a good listener
63. i day dream
64. i watch "Oprah"
65. my favorite dog is a "Bernese mountain dog"
66. my life is not how i envisioned it
67. i am born again
68. i have great neighbors
69. i miss old friends
70. i feel hopeful when i see a rainbow
71. i love to worship
72. i cannot hide my love
73. i have house plants
74. i miss sleeping in
75. i love my mom and dad
76. i can be bossy
77. but i am a recovering
78. i've made some poor decisions
79. i like to give advice
80. i can be impulsive
81. i have gotten to live with grandparents
82. i was a shy child
83. i love drawing
84. i like going out to eat
85. i rarely swear
86. my favorite place is the painted desert
87. i love the red soil of the south west
88. i have a hard time eating enough
89. i like gardening
90. i don't have a garden
91. i go to church
92. i love Jesus
93. i am up at 2 a.m. working on this
94. roses are amazing
95. i find beauty in nature
96. i have been to Yosemite
97. i have seen the 'giant sequoia' trees in CA
98. i have been lost
99. i have found my way
100. i am a child of god

kicking down the door

there was this one time i was really infuriated by my toddler (he is 3) for time outs he goes to his room with the door locked. i got so mad after i closed the door to his room, i started to kick it. hard, over and over, until my foot hurt. i do not recommend this tactic, it was not premediated on my part but burst out of frustration. the problem is now my lil boy who is having a punishment in his room had taken to lying on the floor and kicking the door. hmmmm...wonder where he got that idea?

crayloa makes the best markers

i wanted to go cheap, so i bought the rose art brand. i don't think they know what washable means.
it appears once the ink dries, like it did on my kitchen table, it is permanent! my good thinking used the magic eraser, which took off the rose art marks, but also the shiny finish of my table!
those markers and now in the trash and crayola is in the house!!